worse!!

My English is getting worse. Oh God, I even don't remember when I have to use 'had' or 'have had' or 'verb+ing'. In fact, I don't even know wheter I am writing right grammars now.

When I was in high school, I took English course in ILP. It didn't last for long (only for 3 terms) because I was getting bored (Is it right? Or I should write 'I got bored'?).

Several weeks ago I bought Newsweeks and I found it was very difficult to me to understand the articles. Then I try to read Globe. It was easier, maybe because it was written by Indonesian journalist. But still, every time I go to international site, I don't think I really understand what the sites saying (Again, is it right to put 'saying' after the subject without 'to be'?)

I do I do I do envy people who can speak English very fluently without thinking before they say it or write it.
Uh!